Things are sailing forward ^^

I start my new job on August 8th :)

He always makes all my doubts

go away~ I love him so much.

So I wanted to make Ryo happy..

So I told him he could be friends with Neyah again. It's going to kill me inside if not destroy me but as long as he is happy I don't care. I wish I wasn't like this...having so many insecurities and abandonment issues. I just want someone to stay because they want too and because they care..ugh why.

I hate when my head is like this..

Ugh please stop.

It does suck

That I don't have a job anymore but at least I have a little break. Yesterday was pretty good my mom helped out with Ryo's wisdom teeth surgery. I was surprised that she even offered to do because we didn't ask her for any help. She gave $300 dollars willing to pay for half of the surgery...my moms has been changing for the better and becoming a lot nicer. I'm really happy that things are getting better...I'm always happy and thankful that I have Ryo, he has helped me with so much and helped me get better. I just sometimes wonder how he puts up with me because I know I am stubborn but life is actually a lot easier to deal with. Well bye bye.

Its funny how things play out...

So I got fired from my job yesterday....I knew it was going to happen eventually since they do not like me there. I got hired at C3 so hopefully that goes through well. The thing I'm going to miss the most is all of the awesome people I met there.......I know its a crappy situation but I am happy I am gone..its a terrible place to work and be at. Besides that nothing new...played from my first beta a couple weeks ago....Destiny is so fun! Well bye bye.

Hedgy died today..

We buried him in our backyard...I am devasted.

Feeling sick

Had to call off work...no love right now. 😞😔😥😓😓😢😩😰

Today was good

Got an snk wallet, boba, ramen sora. Felt like shit due to my stupid insecurities..yay. Was given some really good news yesterday....that hopefully will be okay. 

I feel

Like these days come too often now, I hate the feeling of isolation. I feel like people at work just deal with me but don't really like me. I don't try to get to tier 2 because I feel I won't belong.